View from my window

As I was returning from my class, which is a stress-free time for me, I began to notice my surroundings. It was a typical winter day in Chicago. temperatures of 27F, heavily overcast so much so that it seemed to create a haze like halo, moderate winds, hunched students rushing to or from their classes and snow of about half a foot deep. It had snowed during the night and there was fresh snow covering all that my eyes encountered. There was a pristine quality to everything. In the immediate vicinity of the university, paths had been cleared and snow was pushed on both sides to create small dam like structures. It occurred to me, as i observed this, that this vastness, this encompassing white mass was actually made of tiny little flakes. Each flake a beautiful, complete form in itself. But when you look at it on the ground you forget that it came down individually, it merges so well that it creates another reality, a reality so persuasive that we forget its former form. Life of a snowfla...

Dua bhi dil sei nahi nikalti, kaisey nikley? Kahein issey bhi shuba hai kei iss ka asar khatm ho gaya gai. kaisey na ho, pichley baras bhi dua kei thei aman kei, insaaf kei, sachaei kei, laikin iss baras bhi aghaz hei iss khooni tarah hoa kei dua ghut gaei. Masoomoon ka gham, un kei din aur raat kei chain gum honey ka gham, bachoon kei masoomiat khatm honey ka gham...kaisey khatm hoei masoomiat? Iss yaqeen kei khatm honey sei kei ghar kei char diwaari woh faseel nahi jisey gola barood cheer na sakein. yehi tou hota hai bachoon ka yaqeen, kei unke maa baap unhein hur museebat, hur dukh sei bacha saktey hain, Khuda kou bachey kahan jantey hain, yehi tou un ke Khuda hotey hain, yehi yaqeen tou pehchaan dilata hai Khuda ka, ab yeh bachey kiss ka yaqeen karein? Kiss khuda ka? Aur hum? Hum kya karein? Cheekhein, chilaein, qalam azmaein, sadkoon pei aaein, laikin kyun? Kiss kou bacha paein gei hum? Hur maut, aik mayoosi choodh jaati hai, akhir taqat kei phir fath hoi aur kamzoor phir mara gay...

Everyday we make choices. Big choices, small choices, green choices, important choices, insignificant choices....but we make them without realizing that we have a choice. So many times the choices we make are not real choices but are made for us by forces outside of us. First and foremost we are persuaded by advertisement, through billboards, pop ups, television, newspapers or by advocates who have already realized their power to choose. Without educating us they advocate for their choice and we are swayed. Strong advocates for atheism, going vegetarian, going green, going organic, the list goes on. Then there is a modern and current sway which catches us unawares. You are caught in the domino effect and don't even realize your own conversion. And its a strange conversion because you always were what you suddenly start claiming but now you have to define your self, you cant choose to live in the border area, you have to declare. Not only that you have to now start defending your po...