Lay a prayer on my pillow

I was trying to sleep last night and in between stretching, twisting and turning to position my back comfortably I was trying to say a prayer, just a little remembrance (I wasn't planning on an extended meditation anyway) of the Almighty but i kept losing my concentration. I was distracted by things as trivial as remembering a friend i have not spoken to in a while or my teacher from way way back when i was in school, or the weather in London, it was as if my mind was like a little child trying to give excuses for not going to sleep. It was either a stomach ache or a glass of water or a monster under the bed, anything to keep from going to sleep. Why is that? We are no kids. We know that remembrance is a sure shot passport to some peace but still our intention and execution are not always compatible. Any thoughts?

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